The Wife Beater

Today was day 7.  After missing, well, pretty much a year of my bikram yoga practice, it's been pretty tough trying to convince myself to get back in the saddle.  Last year after my aborted attempt at the 101 day challenge I fell off the radar.  Not just with blogging but with yoga, and with life.
So back to mat I go.  I've been wanting to come back, but something was blocking me.  I still have not figured out what that block was, but it seems to have been removed.  Now that the block  has been lifted I feel like a dog, joyously riding in the car, head out the window, tongue lolling out and eyes partially closed.   Ahhh!
The first few days back were me getting used to what I can no longer do in the postures due to my excess weight (look at my profile pic and add 27 pounds, that's me right now).  What I can't do in the postures does not bother me at all, it's more like taking inventory mentally so when I start to improve I can celebrate it.  I know what my body is capable of and I look forward to taking the poor car back out of the garage!
So, the first milestone in this challenge will be the removal of "the wife beater".  You see, I used to wear hardly any clothes to yoga.  Now, self conscious about my weight, I've got layers on, ending in the long tank top, aka "wife beater" over the sports bra.  I realize that nobody in that room would care if I took it off now.  They are not paying any attention to me and are there for themselves.  But I just can't do it.  Not yet.