I can't just plop down a large sum and go get an annual membership elsewhere. I'm paid up for another year where I am. So now that I've had my little "vent", it just comes back to accepting the change. To being flexible, of both body and mind. I will for sure benefit from some moksha classes, and maybe even learn to love them. If I don't, then I just have to adjust my schedule a couple of days a week. No big deal.....right?
Monday, November 2, 2009
Flexible of body and mind
Tonight was 530 with Roberta at Dray's new studio. Today was his first official day being open. The studio is gorgeous. I can already feel his awesome energy and presence embodied in every detail. The first 8 months I practiced yoga my studio was smaller. It had old smelly carpet, small locker rooms and oodles of positive love and energy. I felt so at home in that small cozy studio. There was something hardcore about it too. The small hot room, the bikram carpet smell, and then packing into the locker room afterwards, everybody navigating carefully around each other so as not to collide, naked sweaty bodies. Then our studio moved. Down the street. The new place is huge...two yoga rooms, a large locker room...state of the art. The yoga rooms have this different kind of flooring, kind of plasticy and they don't smell. They are a bit slippery when your feet are wet, so we just turn our towels. I love my studio, I really do, but tonight, practicing in Drays new digs, it felt just like that small old place where I started and I felt a yearning, a pull, a desire to go make a new home. I must confess, the pull is strong, especially in light of the changes at my studio. It's official so I can blog about it now. Starting yesterday, my studio offers both Bikram and Moksha classes. There are two rooms, so you would think this would be something easy to do without disturbing everybody. Well, on a very selfish note, my nightly 530 class will no longer always be Bikram. On Tues and Thurs the "big room" will be Moksha. Mon, Wed, Fri, the "big room" is Bikram. I'm not opposed to Moksha. Or any other form of yoga. I'm just having a hard time adjusting to the change, as my love affair with Bikram still burns hot and bright. I'm sure someday I'll need something else. I know it's good to "mix it up" and work other muscles. I know all of this in my mind. But in my heart, I feel unsatisfied, confused, uncomfortable. If I want Bikram Tues and Thurs then I just have to go at 630 in the small room instead. That's not a big deal. The other problem is some of my favorite teachers have left to go teach at other places.