Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Day 48: Change

Today was 5pm up at Summerlin with Jason. Tomorrow, Brandy (our new champion!!!) will be taking the 930 am class at Summerlin before leaving to India to resume teaching there. Times like this I feel like my work gets in the way of my yoga. **Le sigh**. I will send love, light and energy in that general direction as I sit in my cubicle. I know I've written this before, but Brandy was my favorite favorite teacher at Bikram Southwest when she was there. She always pushed, corrected and encouraged me in a way that made me think "damn, she seems to think I'll kick out someday in standing head to knee and then get my forehead to the knee, perhaps she's right!?!" It took me two years to kick out. Now, approaching three years, I'm finally starting to head in the direction of getting my head to the knee on the left side. I've done it once. Then a few days ago I went in that direction and held it, very still...with the forehead an inch from the knee! Almost! So I'm among a legion of yogis that adore her. I'm just feeling very grateful for all of the classes I got to take from her. I hope someday our paths will cross again so I can take more classes and maybe even.......be teaching a class she is in!
Back to tonight's class. I have been doing "left front row" alot at Summerlin so today I went to the right and did second row, pretty close to the podium. It was a hot, humid class. Even Jason, teaching, was dripping. In the locker room afterwards we were talking about the heat. I said "ya, you know it's hot when your teacher raises his arm and splashes you!" Instructor Patty and I giggled. I'm quite sure that many of you will get grossed out while reading this. Me, I'm a dripper too. I'm sure I've flung a drop of sweat on someone in a packed class and I know I've had alot dripped on me. Funny, when I first started Bikram I would've probably run out of the room screaming if somebody splashed me. Now I consider it an honor when somebody gives me a hug when we are both looking like drowned rats.
I've changed. Alot. And they say people can't change. Perhaps they are right. Maybe we evolve....maybe we make different choices....maybe we mellow out....maybe we learn lessons......or maybe we really do change.....

9 comments:

  1. I think the "change" is more like unmasking who we really are. :) (the more the better I say, full on life!)

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  2. I try to keep my sweat on my towell, remember when I was in Malmö and the first class there I put down my normal 2 big towells and I saw that the guy beside me looked strange at me. I saw later in Tree pose that he realized why I had 2 towells.

    As you said we change, before I would be embarresed to be different in a new environment, but now I just don't care. I am the one I am.

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  3. People are capable of anything, everything---especially change. It's just that making any sort of change or undergoing an evolution of self takes serious effort and work and patience. Many people give up. And that makes all the difference.

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  4. Considering I'm right next to the podium most days, I get splashed on regularly. It's just part of the experience:)

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  5. Change is the best part of this yoga. I have found it easier to grow, to unveil the layers of self doubt, pity, embarassment. I walked out of class yesterday realizing that I have discovered a new me through this yoga. A me other people saw but I never recognized. You can read it here http://yogadaze.blogspot.com/ if you'd like :)

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  6. I like this post - I also would have run screaming from sweat when I first started, and now it mostly just makes me laugh when I/my towel get dripped on. Reminds me of this ecard: http://www.someecards.com/card/youre-one-of-the-few-people#

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  7. Yes - it's incredible how we change on so many levels through the practice of this yoga. And it's fabulous that you got your forehead so close to your knee! Think about all of your possibilities! :)

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  8. Working at the yoga studio, sweat is just part of life.

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