So I had resigned myself to going to the old studio, everyday at 5:30 and just taking whatever hot yoga they offer at that time. I packed my bag this morning, prepared to go the the 5:30 75 min Moksha flow at the old studio. I also was trying to figure out what to say here, on this blog, for my last post. Why keep updating bikramyogachick's blog about Bikram challenges when I'm not doing Bikram anymore, right? There were good things about that decision. Like maybe I've outgrown this space. Maybe it's time for me to move on from blogging. I wasn't going to do it forever anyway. I was going to blog through the challenge, then a little about teacher training here in Vegas in the spring and then stop. For good? I don't know, maybe. The other positive was that I love yoga in general, so of course I will love these other forms of yoga. I just need to be patient and learn them, just like with Bikram.
So with my decision made, I headed to work....and fretted. I felt anxiety over this decision. Why? It's not a big deal. It's just yoga for crying out loud! At the end of the day, an opportunity fell into my lap. After a discussion with my boss, changing my shift to 7 to 4 was actually favorable. I left work at 4:30 and turned in the opposite direction of the old studio and ditched the moksha class. I headed up to the bookstore and killed time before going to Summerlin for the 7pm. I walked in and smiled. Frank was teaching. Students greeted me, the room was hot and steamy. I threw my mat down in the front row next to Joel, a regular from the old studio who has been up at Summerlin since it opened. I proceeded to rock the crap out of that practice. I held standing bow 1st set second side the WHOLE time and second set, both sides I came out just a breath before Frank said "change". Standing head to knee was also very solid. Frank said "good Mish, very strong" after second set. Joy flooded through my body. Two great classes in a row! I had suffered terribly so many classes the first 26 days. Have I come out on the other side? It doesn't matter. Even if I have to suffer again, this is my passion. It's my home. So I'm still here. Still blogging, until the end of the challenge at least, still doing Bikram (the 5pm class starting next week with my new shift!!! Yippee!!!!) and still going to knock this challenge out of the park! The universe has spoken.....it's OK if all I want to do is Bikram right now. So the universe figured it all out for me. All I had to do was follow my feelings.