Day 64: The hardest part is getting here...

That is what Frank said today during the 5:30 pm class. He says that alot and it usually doesn't register with me, because I love going to yoga most days. Today I argued with myself the whole way there. Then I sat in the parking lot, car running, fiddling with my ipod, not wanting to go in. It seems I have hit some kind of mental wall now that I've made the 60 day mark. Once I got in there, my practice was just mediocre. I had balancing issues so my standing series was not stellar. I could not for the life of me get into and hold standing bow, it was a struggle, whereas the day before I nailed some solid, respectable bows and held them almost the whole time. I certainly wasn't beating myself up about my raggedy standing series though, because I was just so proud of myself for winning the fight and getting my butt into that class! It is very interesting to me that the first 60 days were all about working through some emotional classes. That seems to have passed and now I'm dealing with the mental aspect of it. A friend of mine fasts for a day at a time regularly. I tried it a few times with him and it was very difficult to make that last leg in the evening hours when you are home alone and your tummy is growling. He said "that's when you know what you are made of, because nobody would know if you ate or not". He's right, the mental discipline that we maintain even when nobody is looking is what is important. So just like those last evening hours of the fast, this next month I will just need to push through and maintain that discipline , even when nobodies looking.