Day 93: Screw it, I'll finish what I started

I decided to stop blogging for all the wrong reasons (thank you Reggi, my voice of reason).  I need to finish what I started.  I need to make my 101 and I love sharing my experience with fellow Bikram yogis and getting encouragement and feedback.  This is me.  This yoga, this blog.  This is what makes me happy.

So here we go again:  today was 530 with Frank.  Christian and Reggi and I practiced in the front row together, an R and M sandwhich again.  When Christian first walked in I said "Hi, good to see you, Reggi will be happy, our eye candy is here!".  He smiled and said hi back.  Frank was behind the front desk and overheard me.  Fast forward to practice.  I was very happy to be back in the saddle after a day off.  I didn't feel good today, emotionally, I was a wreck.  As soon as I got on my mat I stood there and thought to myself, this is where I am safe.  I had a nice strong practice and felt so much better when it was over.  During practice about halfway through the floor series, Frank just randomly says, while we are in savasana between postures "Michelle called Christian eye candy".  Chuckles and giggles from throughout the room (from me too!).  After class Reggi said "damn, Frank threw you under the bus!".  I said "nah, only if I hadn't said it to Christian's face, then that would be under the bus!".  We milled around in the lobby, getting zicos, talking, laughing, being.  I walked out, yoga bag in hand, digging for my keys, breathing in the cool evening air.  Suddenly, things came into sharp focus:  there is a whole big world out there!  That thought bounced around my mind as I got into my car.  My heart stopped being constricted, my mind stopped thinking about recent events, I looked off into the distance, toward the red rock mountains I love so much and punched buttons on my car stereo, rolling down the window and blasting "Magnificent" by U2.  That is when I knew, I had to finish what I have started.  That means a double this weekend.  Not happy about that, but know I can do it!